Massive Pain Inside

1 word..Massive...
I have been having massive breakdown these last couple of days.Got sudden amnesia...why I can't sleep...i also dunno y...I am also having a breakdown & stress..which is why it does effect myself...late Periods...& no sleep...I have to go to the doctors soon else...I am killing myself! seriously...at work, I would usually take the break and sleep..once I woke up..my left eye will start sore and then all my left eye vision will go kinda blur. Its like the cornea got issues..damn it!
I am waiting for my new ING card and my Opt card to go for a check up and get a pair of glasses for free...shit...suddenly have to wear glasses... :(

Raya is around the corner and I dont have any preparations. I don't have the $$ to do anything...got lots of things to pay..else..i am screwed...working with big pay is not so good anyway... :( have to pay this...pay that....what I have left? with just RM300 per month...what can I do? I can't even buy my adiks shoes...hmmm...sometimes it is painful to be like so poor...being the only person working...but..was a bit lucky to have a fiancee...he do help me alot...Abg...u got bonus..buy me new baju can?? hehehe....no PSP la...I want baju...:)

next month have to get insurance & roadtax...all money...ppl think i got alot of money...but I don't.....I am even counting to pay for the stupid bills! I dont think I can make it...I am just a human...

I just want to shout out what I feel...Abg..help me to find a Part-time job will you...I need the extra money to buy myself nice clothes...plz.....
god..please help me....:-s